Commander-Apollo

Looking back at my previous entry I never realized just how troubled I was before ROTC. Since joining ROTC I have gained a sense of purpose and made many friends. I might even start posting pictures of ROTC activities on here.

Soon I'll be back to wondering if I'll be able to make it to the next day without having to bash my head against the wall or cutting my arm open to relieve some angry. Whether or not I can get a girlfriend or at least a friend that won't betray me? Who in my family will fall fatally ill or even die and make me even more unstable in public areas? My doctor says that if I keep this up I won't be able to enlist because I'm mentally unstable. Everyone in real life is either an complete a$$, a shrink, or family, so it comes to resorting to the internet to try and find someone that I can actually talk to.

Everyday I wish someone would find me and deliver me from the pain and suffering of being alone all the time.